And I Don’t Want to Fall to Pieces, by MorganD
For a second, Alec wonders if he’s actually awake. It feels like a bad dream. It feels like a nightmare he’s had before. A dark, dirty room. The smell of ashes and rot. His heart hammering in his ears. Jace attacking him. The weight of Jace’s body on top of him combined with a furious look on his face. Being held down forcefully to the ground, unable to escape. Looking up into Jace’s eyes and seeing no signs of playfulness, no affection for him, no reverence for what they are to each other.
An alternate version of the parabatai fight in 1×09, this manages to put into words everything I thought was wrong with season 1 and its treatment of Alec.