River senses his hesitation and moves away. Unconsciously, he finds his fingers tightening, holding her head close to his. Her eyes grip his and there is a glow to them he cannot believe appeared in the last few minutes. Perhaps he is only now perceiving it. Something in her shines. Something opened.
He wants it, more of it, but he is afraid to ask, afraid to stand too close, unveil too much of himself.
He feels like his whole perception is shifting, being rewritten. He feels her, acutely—sees so much of her, in her, senses the warmth of her body, the hint of her perfume, the shift of her curls stirring the air. That hot, buzzing air between them. He just found out that her skin feels ever so soft.
This is it, the first time fic of my heart for River and the Doctor. Or rather, for the Doctor – this is an utterly captivating peek into his mind, his heart.