It takes…time. A substantial amount of time, and an even more substantial amount of effort on the part of Zhao Yunlan, that yet succeeds but rarely.
That he takes that effort, that his willingness is so proven—not just willingness, but eagerness; persistence bordering on the obsessive, which is one of Zhao Yunlan’s hallmarks and virtues, but to have it applied to this—that he would apply it to this—that is what finally convinces Shen Wei.
Shen Wei still doesn’t understand it, though. Not really.
Mature, dark-ish. This is a fascinating look at a darker side of their relationship, at the fact that Shen Wei always, always has to hold back part of himself. Zhao Yunlan just wants him to let go sometimes, no matter the cost. This is the aftermath, loving and just a little bit melancholy.
Shen Wei’s eyelid twitch as Yunlan unwraps another lollipop, closes his spit-shiny lips around the spherical head while looking at Shen Wei under dark eyes and thick lashes. Fists clenched on his pant leg, Shen Wei swallows and tamps down the urge to grab Yunlan across the table.
Adult, missing scene between ep 14/15. Oh wow, this fic is perfection – hot and sweet and full of feels, it’s the perfect Shen Wei POV of their first time.
Zhao Yunlan gets up to greet this man, his destiny – who is currently scowling behind his fancy embroidered mask – and smiles as filthily as he can make it. Whatever else they might be to each other, Shen Wei has been taunting him for weeks. Zhao Yunlan is going to take him home and fuck him until he cries and he wants Shen Wei to know that.
“Long time, no see,” he says.
The Black Cloaked Envoy blanches.
Adult, missing scene. I am 100% convinced that Zhao and Shen do have sex for the first time after the tea scene, and this is a deliciously believable scenario (with some shades of novel!characterization).