Then it hits him.
Painfully, harshly, all at once. What just happened, what he got so caught up in it almost hurts when it comes crashing down. Buck just gave him a blowjob. His best friend—a man sucked his dick and made him come so hard he nearly saw God.
The hot prickle of shame pours through him so fast it makes his head spin, his hands are shaking as he tucks himself away quickly, buttoning his pants, not bothering with the belt. He feels a little sick to even have been thinking God’s name while he came down his best friend’s throat.
Adult, CW for internalized homophobia. This is what I was looking for, because let’s be real, the only explanation for Buddie not being canon yet has to be Eddie’s catholic shame and self-hatred. This is another one of those fandoms where I’ve only seen Youtube videos, best friends-to-lovers with one half being a human-shaped golden retriever being my absolute catnip – but I refuse to start watching the show until I know if we’ve been queerbaited again…